I'm ALIVE!

kajrare kajrare tere kaare kaare naina
tera naina tera naina tere naina judwaa naina
surme se likkhe tere vaade,
aankho ki jabaani aate hain, hai,
mere rumallon pe lab tere,
baandh ke nishani jaate hain..
aankhein bhi kamaal karti hain,
'personal' se sawaal karti hain,
palkonn ko uthaate bhi nahin,
parde ka khayaal karti hain
kajrare kajrare tere kaare kaare naina
tera naina tera naina tere naina judwaa naina

Naina.... :-D Absofukinlootely awesome fantabulous performance by my drooly, oogly, hottie Abhishek Bacchan and Daddy Bacchan. It was so cute to see the son and dad dance together.
Well, Music and crazy dancing really peps me up.
Might be going to Mumbai soon, if so this time i'd surely like to ensure i ROCK DA PARTY!

Resolution 1: When i start earning every two weeks i shall watch one movie f or sure :-)

Things to Do in Mumbai:
1. Go for a jog on Juhu every morning
2. Visit Nariman POint as often as i can
3. Go to BAND STAND
4. GORGE on bhel puri and PAo Bhaji
5. PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. Meet up with friends
7. Hope to meet some people
8. try BUMPING into some of my favourtie stars :-D hahhaha
9. Get a funky hair cut @ HFX or JUICE
10. CLICK loads of pics with Rashmi's DIGICAM (if she leaves it)

I hope the trip brings more joy, energy and crazy wildness than tears :-)
Hoping against all odds but, HOPE pe to Duniya Kaayam hai :-D
Rock On PPL....

Dus..bahane Karke le gaye dil, Dus Bahane karke Le gaye dil!!! Here now here now, everybody get down on the floor, here now here now.....

Dead or Alive?

Have you ever really wondered what if on a perfectly normal morning you set out on ur daily schedule for office, college or some place you go, bidding buhbye to mommy and family, but that day you never return?
That day is your last day on Earth. What if on your way back home, you DIE?
Yeah yeah! i know most people wont think about such stupid things...neither would i normally.

Today had a great day, full of fun. Classes got over early and then played cricket in the AC class room, with a ball made out of foil and a piece of cardboard as bat for hours. Had never really interacted with these guys, but well has fun, they were humourous crazy and fun. We even had an IPOD for company - thus, gr8 music. then eventually left, travelled half way with my friend as mostly (I hate travelling alone) and then took an auto for home.
Midway, an accident happened, death was precisely 1/2 inch away. The Auto driver got beaten up, wud have been killed anyway, but to his luck (or misfortune) i came in b/w his death and him. So we chugged along, in silence. He was too ashamed to speak, and i too lost in the thoughts.

What if i actually died today? What difference would it make to people around me? OK now dont read this as being sadistic, no , it was just a stream of thoughts. What difference do i make in people's lives?

Supposing i knew i was to die in a weeks time... what things would i do? hehehehe...
Go to Mumbai and sit @ Nariman Point or Bandstand or Juhu :-D

Ice Creams!

As you exit the mall there stands the attractive colourful Baskin Robbins Stall. Small one yet so startegically placed. After a tiring and so involving shopping spree, when u walk out of the mall with hands full of the choicest clothes, shoes etc... the most rewarding thing seems to be that ice cream.

Well, so i too went for it... a Double Scoop Fruity Fiesta...Looks so so delicious and i gazed and literally ate thru my eyes as the guy stuffed my waffle cone with 2 huge scoops of it.
He neatly wrapped a tissue around it and handed the beauty over to me.
Yummy cool, delicious and pretty....
Gazed @ it and went in for the huge bite....
Mmmm....wow!!!!

and followed another one... mom smiled and i had bought one for her too and handed hers over to her.
and the third bite....

and then came a huge push from behind....and Flop...the scoop feel to the ground.
RIGHT THERE in front of my own eyes my ice cream got murdered....one scoop lay right there on the floor, and i could do nothign about it.
Mooommmmmmmmmmmy!!!!!!!!!!
Almost wanted to cry like a baby...
Alas! the pain of loosing your ice cream strikes even more when u grow up.
Hehhehehee
Mommy bought me another one.... this time a single scoop...ChocoChip :-P

Today was an entertaining sunday. We went out for shopping to various malls and shops.
It was fun how there was a huge huge footfall in all those malls, but at the same time the footfalls in the shops were very differntial.
How do u attract the people you want to step inside your store? and once they step inside how do you ensure they enjoy that experience? and ofcourse comes the sales part.

For the first time i felt like a marketer in thought :-D
Thinking i should make use of such observations and make a sort of a porfolio of ideas i keep getting. Never know where it comes handy. Does anyone here have any kinda portfolio? I need to see what formats and how are portfolios done :-)
Dont think Marketing Portfolios are common or rather even make sense, but cant see those potential ideas going waste.

I see a lot of windows opening up - for experimenting. Had this dream of opening up these 5-6 kinda places and in classroom and outside getting some vague opportunities to work on these ideas. A classmate opening a small restaurant in a busy business location so asking me to help on that and similarly more stuff...

Anyway the most interesting thing i saw today was candy colored undies. Well, i did know females are going gung ho about icecream and candy shades on their clothes and eyes (shades) for that matter but to that extent...hehehe
They had shocking pink, oranges and turquoise colored ones, even with polka dots, and also a combi of flouroscent green and white and fuschia.
The important thing to observe was they were selling like hot cakes - some 99 bucks for a pack of 3. Who were buying? Women age b/w 18-25. Highlights the Self Pamapering nature of women these days. They want to be there for themselves and live for themselves. Make themselves happy and colours brings joy ofcourse. Willing to try nething wild or wicked freedom of expression and choice. Not restrciting themselves to the traditionals - breaking free.
Fun to observe how people buy things :-D

Questions????

"I want to know what sustains one from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if I can be alone with myself, and truly like the company I keep in the empty moments."

Read on a blog http://verbocrescendo.blogspot.com/

Interesting hai...So many questions bubbling under, Curious for sure, but how much?
I leanrt in spirituality that all your questions will be answered if you have the curiosity to know the answers and the "Tadap" to find them too...guess i need more of both...

Wonder what Gurudev is teaching me, he's not here, i am cut off from him, I need his Care, Love and Guidence right now...am sure he's sending them to me...wish i could identify and recongnise them too

Arvind Bhaiya is coming back to town, PD is back to town too, Getting married and all, My past is like coming back, dont know what i'll do???

Of Makeovers and all...

No i am not going to write about the biggest makeover ever --- JASSI

But what does one do one she's sick of the way things are happening around her, her way of thinking, her attitude, her body, her style....everything. Its like a feeling of reformatting , rebranding your soul.
Is that like really possible? Can u actually do that? Erase and reformat? Does it really happen in real world or is this another of those shammy things to make a big buzz about and make money outta it?

Adding to the series of things happening to me and around me today went to a family get together. Cousin sis, bro,, bro in law,sis in laws all were standing talking how marketing is the trashy thing and finance is the smart option and what are the opportunitites etc...i kept listening and the dreaded question came to me - so what are you doing these days? And i said Marketing Management! from some god forsaken unknown institute.

Question: What the hell am i doing with my life, my body, my mind?
Answer : WASTING IT!!!

Question: Why?
Answer : No Clue!

Question: If you dream tonight of your future what do you see yourself most happy as?
Answer : Working independant smart successful woman...

Mwahahahahahahahahahahaha

Well, i have cleaned my slate completly or so i think and stand at a threshold where i can start with a new beginning. I own nothing that i fear to lose, I have no principals i dont want to give up, I have no people i fear the hatred or dissapproval of...basically

I AM UNDONE, UNTIED, and FREE TO GO wherever i want to ...
Great but,

WHERE ...??? I need to know...Soon very very soon, coz its suffocating here i need to break through

Back 2 College

First day @ college after a months break...everybody seemed changed or so it seemed. Reminded me of that Smirn Off ad in which the guy looks through the glass to see everyone's reality.
People have really changed from what they were when they joined. For the better in the practical life sense of it, mayb degraded a bit morally, but professionally became more competent.
Me...i wonder what i got out of these 8 months here??? Wonder what! Whats gone's gone...but remaining 4 months i want to ensure arm me with all that i need to launch off to a smooth beginning in my career. 4 months and i shall be a working women! On her own feet, no longer asking mom dad for money, dunno what...

I wonder what i'll be. I aint so SMART yet...working it out...dunno!
Confusions Clouds...

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Wonder why i cant get ANYTHING right these days!!!?

Anything i touch or try goes KAbooooom! Some jinx.
Desperately looking for some Astrologer, Tarot reader, Palmist...anyone who could tell me whats happening.

All i see is DOOM ahead! well actually not even that, its just so so dark. I am scared of darkness...

Cant play the Guitar , fingers aint mobile enough to reach frets in time and tune. Well, was proud of my long fingers all this while. Wont give up so soon, will try try and try for a month from now...thats when sis leaves.
End mei, will click a ROCK STAR pic for sure.

Dil ke armaa aanshuoo mei beh gayee.......... :-D

Woh Kisna Hai!

I am a TRUE BLOODED BLOOWOODite :-D and proud to say so.
Everytime i see a movie or a dance performance on some number it fills me with so much joy and funky feelings...spices it all up.

Saw PRERNA dance to KISNA tongiht @ Star Parivar awards...
It was so much fun bcoz i could identitfy someone i know as KISNA.
I wrote this post before and the blog ate it up. The feeling was so so strong and the expression beautiful for a change...but dont think can replicate it.

Yet, there's this dude i know...a complete dude! He rocks! big time...and says he doesnt :-) His gaze melts u like and ice cream, his eyes go so so deep, his smile turns him into a little boy u cant resist hugging, his hair falls perfectly on his forehead, broad broad forehead of a man of substance. Most of all what he's made of puts this fire and depth into everything he does. He a man...so raw, yet so cool, who doesnt even have to do anything to make u go week in your knees. But well, he still wud say nah...thats not me...

Women just fall in love with him, everyone, u know ... he's just so wonderful. So i thought of them all to be like the Gopi's , Radha, Meera or Rukmani... Krishna added something way too precious in each of their lives. So much so that their whole life revolved around expriences with him. The Raas, The mischives, The dances are all so so pure...

Well, hope they all can cherish this experience of their lives, who knows mayb he really is the Kal Yuga Krishna...oh well, so i wish...coz wish this actually lasts forever as something that made my life :-D
Rock on!

My sis is coming!!!!!!!!

Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Finally my elder sis is coming for sometime from her hostel. I miss her so much. Would be fun to have her around. Complete family would be together.
Every night as i lay out the plates on the dinner table i miss putting on the 5th one.

I have always been somewhat an introvert extrovert. That is i keep the deepest me and what i truely feel etc to myself, but love talking and jabbering away to glory to people and hanging around with friends. So theres no typical SISTERHOOD between me and my sisters (yea i got 2 of em) yet i simply love them in my own silent ways.

Wish i knew and i would express it more often and in better ways :-) Soon they'd b like married and off to some other families and all tht wud remain for a long time to come would be Mom Dad and Me... Pity mom and dad's condition then, i am the most unruly and wild one.

Sometimes i feel like the brother for them, and act too ... being over protective and u know like "oh u let it be, i'll walk down to the market in the sun" "i'll drop u off 2 ur office" "i'll drive u down" etc... and yes truely i feel i could earn so well, so as to ensure they have a SOLID support all through their lives.

Anyway, so my sis is a nice one, and is really nice to everyone. She always gets gifts for everyone from her little hostel town - which i think has NOTHING that any of us would need. Yet she finds the best things :-D
For me...this time, she will get something reallly really great. HER GUITAR

M excited and hoping i can play it and get the hang of that sexy thing. My dude!

Grated!!!

My staple food these days has become MAGGI. Whenever i return from office and have not had lunch and mom's not around thats the only thing i can cook and hence eat.

Same thing happened today. So thought would add something nicer to it...skimming through the fridge saw cheese...yummy...so here we go...grating some cheese. Cheese was frozen and a bit hard...so along the cheese i ended up grating my hand :-D
Not much only my right thumb got sliced off.
Instant Reaction " Oh this is what mom meant when she used to warn me"
Mom always used to say your hand wud b grated the way your grate. I used to wonder how can a HAND be grated on a simple steel grater.

Well my wondering has come to an end. Maggi indeed was special, it had onions, tamatoes, cheese and some blood too. hehhehehee

Luckily it was just the thumb and not more. Grateful to god. I kinda dont like ugly hands in front of my eyes while i am writing, typing, working etc..
Skin is so beautiful deep within.
I was so sad to see how pink, white and nice my skin really is inside while on the outside its turning black due to all the tan :- (

Remind me to buy SPF 45 body lotion someone...

>>>>>>>>>>>>:D<<<<<<<<<<<

And another little girl, with huge dreams, pink floral dresses, and sparkle in the eyes, enters this awesomly amazing world of blogging...

Hey honey! Welcome aboard >>>>:D<<<<>
A kiddo completly yet trying just so hard to grow up...:-D
Sometimes she surprises me with some wisdom with she blurts out, the very next momement i am relieved when she realises she has no clue what she just said.

All the best babes! Hope it goes real well for u...hope u meet new people, make new friends and more... :-D

Stained!

While taking a bath today i tried scrubbing off this round brown stain on my right wrist. It simply didnt go. Didnt have much time and was too pre occupied to think of it really so carried on.
As i sat typing away to glory some deep thoughts on the pc now, i felt my veins aching and so lazily rubbed the wrist, and looked @ it...to see the stain. Its kinda huge...almost a round spot, which i saw has developed due to the pressure on tht particular point as i type or even use the mouse. I realised on noticing various positions of my hands , tht this point is under pressure constantly. Dangerous!

What struck me even more was, how lost we get in our lives that the things nearest and closest to us, right under our own eyes, get ignored and neglected. Also, this body was given to my soul, to use, to fullfill all the things it wanted to do, to utilise in the fullfillment of the purposes it was sent down for. What am i doing to it?

Its like, a car given by the office to you, or the books in the library of the college...do u mess them up? You take care of them, to ensure they return safely for further use...You use them to help in completing and achieving ur goals, and ensure no harm comes to them.

What am i doing with my body? Self awareness levels have really fallen... Urgent Action Required...