Snippets from the life of a 20 something girl living the big city corporate life...

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Remedies 4 ROTTEN DAYS!

22 fun ideas to give urself a mood makeover and kick out the blues -

1. Belt it out - SING! even if its worse than the gud 'ol donkeys bray. Sing, even if its a short silly song, sing in ur car, in the shower, with the friends, on top of the building :-D (umm provided there's noone to push u off)

2. Take a DAY OFF - When things are going wrong, go right. change the direction, take a day off, all by yourselves, read, have a ot of tea, lie arnd in ur pajamas, take long afternoon nap, go out for a wlak in the evening to the childrens park, swing on the swings and just et your hair down.

3. Photo Up - dig out an old album or good 'ol school times, or first birthdays etc your first bike, ur first crush on the funky art teacher and u shall soon be smiling - oh not to forget the school farewell where u wore a saree for the first time

4. TRASH IT - write out all the things going wrong with u right now on seperate pieces of paper. Read up one by one and tear and throw em in the basket, SHOW EM who;s the boss. Vent out ur vengence on them :-D

5. Over tip someone - Doing something simply and niec to someone makes u smile. Buy the gajras sold @ the red lights from the little girl and pay her an extra buck, buy some baloons which are not worth the tenner but with a smile....

6. Face it up - Gandhiji's advice - whenever u feel like u having the worst possible phase in life, just remember the face of a really really suffering poor, helpless person. It shall show u how much better offu are, and so much more that you can do.

7. More Orangy! - Although all colours do good, but orange pepps up the moods the most. so get those orange t's or pencils or posters up arnd u.

8. Natural Therepy - umm nope not talking abt those zillion thousand massages... but a simple barefoot walk on the dewy grass, or a simple 15 mins of watering ur plants :-) Mamma Nature loves u

9. Paint it up - PLAY with paints , do a qucik finger painting, crayon stuff, use ur thumb, feet, fingers nething, paint a wall, t-shirt or even ur own face! :-D Paper ofcourse is another thing u can always use

10. Be your own Friend - Split urselves into two friends. Hehehe, wut wud u do for ur bestest friend or a sweet lill girl who's sad as she dropped her top scoop of ice cream or cut her babrbies hair which now dont grow back... Do that for yourself...talk and pamper urself as u wud to her.

11. SHOP - mwahahahaha the KILLER ALL TIME FAV. thing to pep neones mood - be it a man or woman - GO SHOP - get urself a fab bargain on that shirt or kurta u always wanted, or at that kabari walla who wud give u the precious books for peanuts, or the saloon which is running a scheme of a free head massage with a hair cut :-D

12. Be the SKY - Sit quietly for a few minutes and imagine yourself as the wide blue sky - with ur feeling of worry, frustration, anger, or fear as distinct clouds moving across the horizon. IN doing so, you shall be reminded that self is far bigger than these feeelings and moods, which are temporary and passing through rather than taking you over.

13. CHOCOLATES - chocs contain mood uplifting chemicals - it increases endorphins and serotonin in blood, promoting a sense of well being. So go give urself a choco break!

14. Dance Away - remember the dancing baby from Ally Mc Beal? put on ur fav music, crazy music and just swing with it. Dance with urself, closeu r eyes and just move... swing with urself, go crazy, jump, scream whateva u wanna do just dance wit hit

15. Smell the happiness - i always keep a whole stock of Incense Sticks, Deo's, Perfumes and soaps. People say u shud use only one kinda fragrance which u identify urself with... Me says, smell like ur mood, rather smell like u wanna smell. Sporty, Fun, Relaxed, Sexy. Incense sticks, Aroma Oils, even perfumes sprayed into a bucket of water for ur bath, simply relax ur senses. Sooth ur senses and u rocking to work again ;-D

16. Pay a Compliment - take a minute off and get ur nose out of the files, pay a simple compliment to ur secretary, ur team mate and say how cool its to work with em. If frnds hug em (Rashmi n I do it all the time ...hehehe though ppl think we crazy) and smiles wud light up on their faces and electric recharge of energy both in u and them...caryy on then

17. Get ur hands DIRTY - Take a pottery class and muck around like a kiddo. Ok... no pottery, use Playing dough, Clay or what the hell even ur plain ol chappti DOGH, make something cray lill, like a stupi mask, or a pendant and flash it around.

18. Walk Walk Walk - Walk like crazy, mayb even all the way from ur office to home. BESTESTEST way to ward off ur anger aggression and "GRrrrrrrrr wanna kill him" :-D Another good option is playing basketball all alone for hours - but tht is subject to neighbours not killing u for dribbling liek mad in ur courtyard

19. Bring the OCEAN inside - i LOVEeeeeeee the OCEAN, the WATER! stimulate the effect of walking on a beach for hours, or watching a sea splash across, by al uxurious bath, or a great poster or a video u downloaded on kazaa. else put a table spoon of salt in ur bath tub or a bucket, put on a cd/cassete of running water sounds , light a sea breeze candle or smthing, and sit with ur eyes clsoe imaginign the sea... TRUST me the effect is like AWESOMELY COOL

20. Watch the water - well if u in Mumbai or places near water, ur life is heaven! A calm pond, a swift river or the mighty ocean, GAZE at it for hours with some pop corn, or music, or nthing. Even the rains are so beautiful go to the roof top, watch the hail falling, or simply go 2 ur bathroom, take a shower and watch the water flow all across u.

21. Moments of GRATITUDE - no matter how bad u feel things are god shall always give u a handful of things u could be happy about. Take a deep breath and DIRECT DIL se thank God for those.

22. SPUNK IT UP - Finally , dress the way u feel. U wanna kick some butt then pull out tht funky punky torn pair of jeans and top it with a real rad, strong and screamy T-shirt! NO TARSH in my life. So he thinks pink is outrageous, SO WHAT! wear a tangy pink T with ur fav blue jeans, colour it all up! Un Knot all the ties, rufle tht hair up! go mad!

Basically...whenever u feel u being pulled and tagged in ten differnt directions...GET UP and

~~~UNLEASH YOUR SENSES~~~

Friday, July 29, 2005

What do u do when everything inside feels dead?
What do u do when the emotions solidify
The tears dry leaving the scars
The eyes freeze waiting for the glance

You wannabe rude, you wannabe be shrewed
but all u wish for
is 2 pence of love

Living two lives
or wearing two masks
the smile on the face
conceals the the shattered glass

Who are you trying to fool
is the question you should ask

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Mysterious Mind

Heared about the Mumbai Rains today.
First thing was to count the names of the people i know there.
Second thing SURPRISE! Wasnt like worried sick to the bone.
Usually get pretty frantic and shoot off calls and messages, this time around simply prayed!
Frankly, i somewhat imagined the person i called was stuck somewhere...then what? I would simply waste his mobile charge, and talktime and probably disturb him somewhere. Cant do anything to help form here naa...

Then the thoughts wandered to analyse the general human behaviour. Why do we want to make sure the people we know are safe? Is it coz we want to help them or help ourselves?
Is it to reassure ourselves and rest our frantic veins and thoughts in the head? or to ensure we help them in whatever way we can.

Well, all was quite amusing to me, specially when even after realising it woudnlt make a difference i still had to oblige my impulsive "WANT" to sms and call :-D
The icing on the cake when people didnt reply :-D another logical argument popped up - Networks mayb blocked! Geez... The games mind plays.


Yet subconsciously kept searching for clues and hints :-D
1. watching every telecast of news, to find ne familiar faces in the crowds being shown
2. checking offlines messages on yaoo
3. reading and re reading the blogs...
hahahaha

Its funny the way the Mind, the Heart and the Head contradict...if bought into synergy the trio can leap and fly across, above and beyond all boundaries. Wonder how to achieve that!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

~ Prayers From The Heart ~

Vakratunda Mahakaya
Suryakoti Samprabha
Nirvighnam Kuru Me Dev
Sarvakaryeshu Sarvada

Sarvamagal Mangalye
Shive Sarvarth Sadhike
Sharanye Triyambke Gauri
Narayane Namastute

Praying at your holy feet, Let the light guide thy soul.
Holy Soul please take thy by hand and guide thru the maze of this maya.
Please bless thy soul, Heal thy heart...

Do you want to be an angel
Do you wanna be a star
Do you wanna play some magic On my guitar
Do you wanna be a poet
Do you wanna be my string You could be anything
Do you wanna be the lover of another undercover
You could even be the Man on the moon
Do you wanna be the player
Do you wanna be the string
Let me tell you something It just don't mean a thing
You see it really doesn't matter When you're buried in disguise
By the dark glass on your eyes
Though your flesh has crystallised
Still...you turn me on

Do you wanna be the pillow Where I lay my head
Do you wanna be the feathers Lying on my bed
Do you wanna be the cover Of a magazine
Create a scene
Every day a little sadder
A little madder
Someone get me a ladder

Do you wanna be the singer
Do you wanna be the song
Let me tell you something You just couldn't be more wrong
You see I really have to tell you That it all gets so intense
From my experience It just doesn't seem to make sense
Still...you turn me on

- Emerson, Lake & Palmer

Yes, Still u turn me on

Friday, July 22, 2005

So now i know why all working people look so so forward to a weekend.
Two whole days of holiday, to do all the things you have been planning to do
I have no plans...

Might take a break from here
Have a great Weekend and God Bless All

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Gurupoornima

Tomorrow is Gurupoornima.
Its like the greatest day for disciples, to thank their Guru's for the blessings, guidence and protection.

To read more about the essence of the day - http://sanatan.org

I dont know who's my Gurudev, I hope to know someday :-) All i know is the blessings are there, sometimes i see them, on others they dissapear.

Simple prayer at His Holy Feet

Jya Jya thikani man jaye majhe
tya tya thikani nij roop tujhe
me thevito mastak jya thikani
thethe tujhe sadguru pay donhe
Shri gurve namaha, Shri gurve namaha, Shri gurve namaha

Meaning-

Each and every place that my mind wanders
may it find your essence there Gurudeva
Each and Every place i bow my head
may it find your holy feet Gurudeva
PLease guide me, please protect me, please inspire me!

Monday, July 18, 2005

DAY # 1

First day at my prospective employment place.
We on for a 21 day internship there right now.
The place SUCKS! bigtime...
Not sure if thats the kinda work place and profile i am really looking forward to.

21 days to find out if i can fit in or not.

Back to my wandering self...or atleast getting there. So many things to explore, outside and within. This could be the beginning or the end. Or the End and Beginning both.

Hehawhehaw!

All i live by these days is - Jab jab jo jo hona hai, Tab tab so so hona hai
No one gets more than one's detined to, and noone gets less than that either.

So Chin up lady and hup one two three four, hup two three four....

Friday, July 15, 2005

Midnight Lamp

Tommorow is my last day of exams!
After that shall begin a new journey for 3 weeks. Will go on the first REAL internship, to get a piece of what i shall be working as 2 months down the line.
My first stint with real life work experience...

But as of now, all i see is end of a grilling week of continuous exams!!!
Wanna part tomorrow, but am sure would meet hurdles. Yet, have a back up plan for myself - Party all by myself tomorrow night. Any suggestions on what to do?

Rains are greeting the city every day now. Monsoon is really here. The freshness of everything around me is inspiring, makes me feel like changing over completly. Does bring back memories of people...when the breeze and the rain drops touch u , and u feel like not letting neone touch u and yet the droplets find there way thru it turns ur saddness into an inevitable smile.

Its the season of hope, of dreams, of aspirations, of inspiration, of determination, of courage, of love, of peace, of change...
CELEBRATE the essence !

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Biking in the RAINS!!!

Had my first date with the Rains today!

As we moved out of college after a total Pakauu (sickening) exam rains greeted us!
Was on a bike, got drenched from head to toe and the cold wind and rain greeted me...

It was a really cool experience...to zoom around (ok he drove only @ 70kmph) and have the rain and wind hugging me...
Refreshed Naturally for sure...

In college we used to have a saying....

"Suhana mausam ho, Funky bike ho, Peeche hum ho.... aur aage koi smart banda ho " :-D

Hahaha.... smiled for atleast 5 minutes remembering that...followed by some more crazy memories from college.
The 45 minute ride was surely a gift from God...to life the spirits and spread a smile across.

Thankyou God!

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Never believed it to be true, untill now when i see it happening with my own eyes...

Some people come into your life, and life changes, things start flowing and luck, happiness and vision follows you. And then those people leave and your whole world crashes
Emotionally, Physically, Logically - all the things start going wrong, all you see is broken pieces and tears!

Doesnt make ne sense - whats your life got to do with someone else's presence? Whats your life's story got to do with someone elses?

Yet it all blurs out, and everything seems to be slipping out - like water thru the fingers,
and all you do is cry out loud within your heart - coz u know no one's gonna hear when u call out - help!

What the hell did i do wrong? Where the hell did i go wrong?
Well... God alone knows, and he's the one having all the fun

Sunday, July 10, 2005

So much i wish today i could say
in his ears as he sits next to me
darling i love you so much
so much so that cant say it more

So much i wish today i could
hold him in my arms and hug
tell him things would be better
but then he doesnt like to hear those words

So much i wish today i could
stretch out my hand which he would hold
as we sit together anywhere
and simply look deep into each other

So much i wish today i could
do something to make things better
pacify his heart
make him smile
do anything to fade those tears away

He gone into his shell
withdrawn from this meaningless world
what goes on his head
is a huge mystery
which he alone beholds

So much i wish today i could
turn back time
and bring it to where we were friends
There he spoke so freely
his hearts desires pouring
without a thought or calcuation

What can i do when i love him so much
How can i make his life better
How can i tell him it doesnt matter
weather he can love me back or not

All i wanna tell him is let me be near
Coz my love for him is eternal...
All i want is him to stay
in whatever style in whatever way

Dude... Dont know how to do this better... Besides saying "I SHALL LOVE YOU" Forever

>>>>> THANK YOU <<<<<
Bhavna
Anubha
Pratish
Thankyou for being around
when all i wanted was to go KILL my Non-Performing Liabilities like Group Members.
Thanks for giving that pat one needs, when going gets tough.
Everyone's gotta fight there own battles but
a few words and a huge hug makes all the difference
Thanks for that and so much more!
You guys! IGNITE MY PASSION :-D to work work and more work

Monday, July 04, 2005

I dont need to compete
I dont need to try
if the world shall run
I shall choose to Fly...

I dont need no love
I dont want to cry
Life is calling
and i shall reply

I aint a number
I aint no type
you cant woe me
with ur standard style

When i see the snapshots
in someone else eye
the pictures are the same
the faces die
i wonder was i a proxy
or was it ur style

Whatever it was the essence has died
vapourised into the sky
i am different and not just anyone
she is not me and i aint her
hope u get that right the next time

the blue rose
froze in the night
and died

coz i dont need to compete
i dont want to try
if the world shall run
i will choose to fly...
walking alone the shores that lie
across the seas untouched untried

Friday, July 01, 2005

the house is silent
the night fills the halls
u sit in the corner
wondering who you are

sleepless eyes stare into the dark
searching for something
they know exists not

and the heart cries
the eyes too try hard
while the head says
i told you to be on your guard

words decive
and so does reason
the logic dissapers
and the practicality seems like an illusion

she drank from the fountain of pain & sorrow
the tears that flowed down the marrow
she thought she could turn it into joy
little did she knew
she would also turn so blue inside