Dont wanna miss something that may pass by
an opportunity that could perhaps make me fly
Eyes are red, tired and week
yet m too afraid to close them and sleep

Choices...

Choices. It feels good to know you have more than one options to explore. Feels like Ganpati Bapppa, the lord of all directions has opened them all up for you.
The second momment it gets the worse thing to happen coz u have no clue where to go.

Choices...its sad when u dont have ne...and its bad when u have ones u cant decide amongst!

I can decide for neone else...but for myself!!!

...Jaaein To Jaaein Kahaan
Jaaein To Jaaein Kahaan
Samajhegaa, Kaun Yahaan,
Dard Bhare Dil Kii Zubaan
Jaaein To Jaaein Kahaan...

Somthing big has happened in my life. Something that every student dreams of , or maybe doesnt even dream of. Have completed my MBA and such a style that makes a statement. Everyone's awed at the glory and applause surrounds me. Yeah i have accomplished what everyone dreams of, and i dreamt of too.

Sadly so, the thrill, the happiness the feeling is not there. The one person who i wanted to tell about it to before neone got to know, didnt even react to it. He inspired me, he lead me and he rekindled the hope to get up and walk everytime i was tired, but when i finished the journey he wasnt even around to see it did so. When told him it seemed like it didnt even matter nemore.

Mom Dad and family are really happy and proud! But Me... I dont feel a thing inside. Its sad, so sad...a sad sad situation, but feel more dead than ever inside. Biggest momments of my life perhaps. Limelight, victory, glamour, coverage, rewards, everything coming my way.
My name shall be written in GOLDEN LETTERS in the hall of fame of my college, but so sad i feel not like a hero. I feel like a lost warrior who won the battle but lost everything that mattered!

Wrapping up

My whole day went today or atleast the greater part of it in wrapping up the 33 books i bought for the toppers of my class.
Never in my life has my patience been tested so much.
Things i discovered :

1. Cellotape is a stupid thing and very unstable, once cut it keeps getting stuck at wrong places.
2. Glittery paper is bad to wrap with - very untidy
3. Music makes time fly faster
4. Its sickining to keep wrapping books one after the another for 4 hours
5. Monotonous work is kinda boring and stupid after a while
6. P is very very very irritating and obsessed with Manoj
7. Even simple little things needs expertise to be worked upon
8. Perfection is not valued by most people, they dont even try to get anywhere there

I am crazy about BOOKS :-D ... though i take a lot of time to read them but i love to have a lot of them around :-D

Tomorrow we give our juniors a freshers party, a gr8 lunch and i get my hand picked books :-D

Woohooo

~ Books ~

I always had a dream to have my own little collection of books and a reading room or something.
So it wa a nice surprise to know that college is giving out books to toppers in each subject.

These are the books i finally shortlisted after days of running around the indiatimes stock rooms and libraries and all over the Times house!!!

1. 21 leaders for the 21st century - Fons Trompenaars
2. Blink: The Power Of Thinking Without Thinking - Malcom Gladwell
3. Straight from the gut - Jack Welch
4. How to have a beautiful mind - Edward De Bono
5. Teach yourself how to think - Edward De Bono
6. Brand Warfare- David F. D'Alessandro
7. Games People PLay - Eric Md Berne

I hope i can do justice to these books... Thanks guys! for suggesting books, but the people didnt have those titles. Maybe next time. Though i plan to go down to the roadside book market more often once i start earning :-D
I need to devote a lot of more time to myself, and my interests now...they almost starving to death. Music, Reading, Dancing, Cooking...havent paid attention to them in a long while.
I hope times change!

Books!!!!

I have to buy some books -

Please suggest some...
on life, on moving on in life, on branding, on strategy etc...

Need them urgently as need to submit my list to college by tuesday.....HELP!! i want good books

ok...i wrote a real lousy post...so erased it.

Today i had my few seconds of fame of course as always followed immediately by some equally disheartening ones...but i guess if my happiness is not killed within the shortest times possible, that now becomes a cause of worry.

I topped my class in 4 out of the last 8 exams. Scored 97 in one!!! which came as a pleasant surprise. I was told that for each paper i have topped in i would get a book of my choice! Thats like a dream come true. I always wanted to have my own library of books. I have topped so far in something like 7-8 subjects. People suggest some good books for me to buy. Of course not too expensive ones :-D

Each moment these days passes like a class full of learning!!! Man! and i thought i could relax for a while after exams got over. wonder what i shall reach...

ok...got no more to write..so bring this to an abrupt end...sowwie!

Ok...like just came back from my LAST EXAM today and i see miss Pixie has left a huge QUESTIONNAIRE for me. Though i hate to do this, but fine this ones for u honey.
Actually on the way back was wondering - Life, Me, and NOW WHAT...tht the party is over

Seven things you plan to do before you die
1. Give up everything i have for a spiritual cause.
2. Own a chain of retail outlets - Apparel, shoes, Books & stationary, restaurants etc.
3. Make my family and their families happy.
4. Love someone enough to give him a new life.
5. Own a small cottage by the water, near the mountains, and loads of open sky.
6. Drive & Ride the best of automobiles - and own a few too
7. Ok yea, i wannab famous too - for good things

Seven things you can do
1. Procastinate
2. Be Lazy
3. Sleep
4. Mess things up
5. ok... i am not going to think of more ...

Seven things you can't do
1. Cook.
2. Be tactful.
3. Make people like me.
4. Love.
5. Stick to my plans.
6. Remember Birthdates and DAYS!.
7. Be Good.

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex
1. Intelligence.
2. Eyes.
3. Chivalry.
4. Maturity.
5. Sense of humour.
6. Voice.
7. Respect for people and things.

(o my GOD!!!! :-O Pixie!!! )
Ok... just copied ur list :-D ... nah! i dont have ne parameters, only that i dislike a lot of things :-D

Seven things you say most
1. hi
2. whatever
3. ailaa
4. hmm
5. yea go on
6. and say
7. hmmm

Seven celebrity crushes
1. Richard Gere (Shall we dance)
2. Abhishek Bacchan
3. Him (future celeb)
Ok i aint a very crushy person

Seven people you would want to take this quiz - hehehe i dont wanna tag neone ...but i guess that'll break teh chain...
so...
1. The-Think
2. Shilpa
3. Wham-Gurl
ok dunno who else...sowwiew

Was searching for something in my drawer, hehehe as usual when i need something the most i cant seem to find it, or i loose it. This time aroud i found something nice, wonders of the hidden drawers and closets i say...

A simple tissue - with a few lines written across wrapped in a twig like a gift. Instantly came and searched for the song, its so nice to listen to those long lost favourite songs once in a while.
Its so cool to find some 10-20 bucks in the pocket of your jeans u wore last week and didnt give for a wash (thank god) or find a feather or a flower in one of those old books u loved to read and re-read...
Memories - they nice little things which should haunt you for life :- D
Yipppeeee.................


You fill up my senses like a night in the forest.
Like a mountain in spring-time
like a walk in the rain
like a storm in the desert
like a sleepy blue ocean

You fill up my senses,
come fill me again.
Come let me love you,
let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter,
let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you,
let me always be with you.
Come let me love you,
come love me again.

Vakratunda Mahakaya Suryakoti Samprabha

Nirvighnam Kuru Me Dev Sarvakaryeshu Sarvada

www.sanatan.org

Ganesh Chaturthi is on 7th September. I beilieve Ganpatiji is very kind. He is very kind hearted and whoever surrender unto him, he helps him. He opens all directions for him, he gives him the courage and determination to walk on even when all you see is darkness. He is the destroyer of all evil and has immense power.

He is the ocean of all Gyan, and power, he is the only translator, he gives us concentration, will power, motivation and guidence.

Ok, this aint a spiritual essay on Ganpati Bappa, but yes, his name itself gives so much energy. I love the way Mumbaites celebrate his 10 day stay in their homes. How crazily they get down to the roads and sing

GANPATI BAPPA MORIYA!!! MANGAL MOORTI MORIYA! MORIYA RE BAPPA MORIYA RE!

If anyone who reads this blog, has even the slightest bit of dissolution, confusion and helplessness in their minds i say, 7th Sep is the day you should try your luck and devotion. If u believe in God, and in Ganpati Bappa, thats the day you should chant his name and pray to him to show you the way.

God Bless Us All

Grand Finale!

And the GRAND FINALE of my course has begun.
6 days, 8 exams - that spell the closing chapter of a year i shall never forget in life. A year that changed everything.

6 days and after that would know where i stand. Next 6 days would know where i am going. Is that driving in fast lane or wut?! Reminds me of those days in school. Was into a lot of atheletics, and loved the long distance races.
You had to take as many as 4-7 rounds of the huge field, and keep running running and running, keeping the pace up. In the last round, you would be like exhausted and spent, and panting, and feel like you werent moving the legs but the legs were moving ur body -
and then you had to pull it all together and PULL YOURSELF BEYOND your imagination, stretch, pull, scream, and run, run faster with no energy left, extract the smallest molecule of energy within u and run and run, and then slowly you would see yourself leaving the other guy behind.
THAT was victory.

Thats what i need to do even now! Thrilling, yea, wanna give it a shot yea, but dunno - if i still have that fire to fire it all up.
A victory is a victory if you actually put every bit of it into it...i hope i can also do so :-D

Double Jeopardy

A day FULL of things.
Hurt, Pain, Betrayal (in some sense) and then hope, light, success and blessings.
All packed into one day.

The overall flavour being blue- coz my friend stabbed me in the face (not even the back)

Little things make a big difference. and yeah i am a bit of an emotional dweep when it comes to culting with my friends . I can kill/ Die/ Steal/ Beg / Borrow for them... and expect them to atleast trust me, not judge me, have faith in what i am doing.

Well, either i didnt bond enough with her, or maybe we not really as close friends as i thought we were.
Nevertheless, a slit thru the heart, another bullet in tht piece. Will live with it.
Thanks!! that was a gr8 farewell gift.....